Welcome To My World

It's been a difficult time. My twin sister passed away on December 27th, surrounded by her family. I held her hand for much of the night. You think you are prepared, well, at least, I thought I was, but really how can you prepare to lose someone who is a part of you? I miss her so much. Her laugh, being able to call her, stop by and see her beautiful face. I NEED to know that she is somewhere and is okay! We talked about her trying to leave me signs, if she could. I have been finding a lot of dimes lately, I wonder if that is her?

I have this feeling of disconnect, fuzzy brained, like I forgot something, but don't know what.

I ended up in intensive care myself, in December. I had respiratory arrest and had a machine breathing for me for a few days. I think it was a reaction to some new medication, which I am no longer taking, thank you very much! I feel like I have lost a lot of get up and go, tire easily, when I do have any energy, which isn't often. Poor Tom, I rely on him more and more.